Hi Mam, I've been to see grandma this evening and spend a few hours with her. We finally got the go ahead to go. She is so unwell, it doesnt seem like she has very long left with us. Breaks my heart, cant bare to think of losing her but cant bare to think of her suffering. She still looks as beautiful as ever but she was very sleepy. Leaving her side tonight was so hard, I dont know if this will be the last time I get to see her... i dont know what will happen tomorrow and if she will improve but i hope you are watching over her. I wish you were here with us xxxxxx