It's been 5 years since we lost you. Today its hard to remember the good times and to think in any way that isn't filled with sadness and anger. I wish more than anything that my you was still here, I can't even find the right words to express how it feels. The missing and longing never goes away, but on days like today it's sharper and its a reminder that its actually real. I'm thankful for being lucky enough to have such a wonderful Mam, angry about everything awful you had to go through in your life and sad that you have missed out on so much. I am so lucky to have you as my Mam, I wish I could tell you how much I love you and give you the biggest cuddle in the world.