Another year is ending without you here, and a new one about to begin... This year has been so hard, losing cody in February, then covid, then losing grandma in April. It still doesnt feel real, like it's all a bad dream. I keep wishing this will be different but every morning I wake up and remember what has happened, and what has been lost. Time has gone so fast this year, and so many missed opportunities. I feel angry and sad about lockdown stopping us from getting to be with grandma, I hope she knows how much I loved her and always will. I wish we could be with grandad, I feel like so much time is being wasted and we are all having to spend so much time apart. I just want you to know how much I love you and miss you. Please dont forget about me as I will never forget about you xxxxxx